Overall I am a friendly person and enjoy talking to people. I make jokes and like to make people laugh. But lately it's like I'm just a big weirdo and nobody gets my jokes. I arrive to a conversation only to find that all of a sudden it seems private. Or I walk into a room and everyone is already with the people they want to be with and I feel excluded. I ask myself what I'm doing wrong, or what's wrong with me. I have felt this way off and on over the years. I know it has partly to do with my own insecurities. I want to connect with the people around but it feels like I'm speaking a foreign language. It feels like nobody gets me. And that is a very lonely feeling.
May 4, 2011
Social Funk
Lately I've been in a funk, socially speaking. I say things I shouldn't say, or I talk too much and laugh too loudly. I am telling myself in my head to shut up, or not to say certain things and I don't shut up and do say those things I didn't want to say and I make someone uncomfortable.
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I feel this way sometimes, too. I have a few local friends, but no one that I'm super close to. My best friends, that I do fit-in with are far away.
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We should talk some time - we can be loud and laugh like crazy and say whatever might be incorrect or not right. :)
Do you have skype?
Thanks Emily. I appreciate your words of empathy.
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